Me = Enemy

 15/11/2024

Hi all..

Maybe not hi? Hello? What’s up?

Though this is my first blog officially, I would like to put it here that I’ve done this privately for like 2 years now. But I’m not going to put all that here wrangle everything. I’m starting this today on a Friday night, oh actually it’s Saturday now okay anyways on a Saturday night I wished to do this because…

I am very sad and depressed big time…

They say depressed people have lot to talk but they tend to have it all inside themselves because they are afraid.

Afraid of what ?

Afraid of letting others know their fears, their own insecurities, their failures, etc.

And that’s why I am here to channel those emotions in a humorous way possible

Or

You can also call it a cry for help.. haha found my humour? ><

So today it is all about me and my unending fear. Now let’s talk real.

There was a time where I had people back me up and also people who kicked my back. But there was someone who had always been a person who didn’t care to back me up or kick me down just thought to make me stronger and make me stand up for myself. I guess everyone would have had that person at least once in their life. I hope so god, if not I think you would be the most miserable and unlucky person.

So one day this person wanted to be an inspiration for me and the next day he turned into a depression to me. The same person not only kicked my back also made me get up and pushed me into a well where there’s no water.. how rude right? Anyways when I looked up from the ditch, above there he was standing with a grin and looking at me like he achieved something big like meeting superstar Rajinikanth, ugh as if he could. When I looked him grinning realised that he is not “he” and he is “me”

Then the realisation hit me with a hammer reminding me that the negativity within you could ruin yourself by manipulating that you are not worthy of the life given. There’s a psychological fact proving that people tend to listen to their negative feedback more than the positive response they get. When a person tells you that you’re not worthy or you do not deserve it or you are too lazy or you are too self obsessed. People tend to listen to this and make it a non-stop replay recording in their mind. They start to become unkind to themselves by manipulating the same negative impact of the world is giving them.

So being kind to a person doesn’t make it rain on you or doesn’t make the world destructive. To spread kindness in the way of doing it kindly to others may provoke them to do it with other people. No one will come and get you back up when you are kicked down. There’s two legs given so that you could get yourself up and climb up to the world and say ..

IT’S OKAY, I FORGIVE YOU.

Dear world, 

Be kind enough to make sure that karma doesn't follow you up.

I hope this had some good impact on you and i hope for you to fight your inner demon and get back up and climb up with kindness that you wish to offer into this shitty world.

I don't know whether i would keep this up but i may see you on next ranting session..

Signing off. 

Kiki <3